Bye NY.

Now, my life is miserable.
Miserable.
I thought so before...
But now, it's REALLY miserable.

Why? Rodger hates me. Gabrielle moved away. I broke Rodger's leg and arm. I can spend hours stating why my life is miserable.

Well, I met a very nice boy. His name is Alex. I don't like him. He's just REALLY nice.
And obviously, Rodger has a thousand jealous nerves.

he would give me silent treatments! he didn't even dance with me in glee! (We're partners)

"Wait up!" I heard Rodger behind me.

I stopped.
I could hear the sound of his crutches coming closer.

"Hey..." I quietly said.

"Hey." He hugged me.

Not a friend hug, like a... romantic hug.

I stepped away.

"Sorry... used to it..." I smiled.

I still loved him. But I was pretty sure this was better for us.

"I still love you." He said.

"I would do anything,I mean ANYTHING so that you can love me again."


"I still Do love you. But this is best for us. I mean, you find your self a girlfriend. Some one that deserves you. I don't"

"What's his name? It's Alex isn't it?"

"No! It's not him! It's not anyone, anything, it's just better for you! Do you want to date a girl who is obsessed with crafting and cries herself to sleep every night and her maximum of eating burritos is 10 per hour?"

"Maybe I do! Why? Because your different. I'm not such a jerk around you. You know what? Maybe it IS better for us!" He looked disappointed.

"Don't talk to me, Bella." He walked the opposite way with his crutches.

What did I just do?
Another problem with me.
I think too fast.
I don't know what I just did.

We headed our opposite directions to glee.

"Hello, gleeks." Ms.Terry announced.

"Ms! I have a question!" Margaret chewed her gum.

"Yes, Marge?"

"What is you first name!?" She chewed louder.

"Addison... Why?"

"Just wondering. Oh hey Collin!" She jumped up.

They made out for a few seconds, leaving me in disgust.

"It's over between us."

"But--" She covered his lips with her finger.

She skipped to her seat.

I could tell Collin was disappointed.

" Okay, as you ALL should know, the theme is social feelings. As in, love life, friendships, etc.Who wants to go first?" Ms.Terry looked up from her clipboard.

Rodger raised his hand.

Ms.Terry nodded.

She climbed his crutches up stage.

He whispered to Collin and sat in the seat.

The music played.

"Easy come,easy go, that's just how you live, oh, take, take,take it all. But you never give. Should of know you were trouble from the first date. Had eyes wide open. Why were they open?"

He gave me a stare.

"Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash, you tossed in the trash yes you did."
He sang beautifully.

"You give you all my love is all I ever asked" I sang with him.

"Is all I ever had so, What you don't understand is I'll catch a grenade for ya!"

"I’d catch a grenade for ya Throw my hand on a blade for ya.I’d jump in front of a train for ya.You know I'd do anything for ya"

Tears rolled down my cheeks.
I ran to the bathroom.

I had to be strong.
I had to be strong.
I had to be strong.

I wiped my face with a tissue.
I looked at my self in the mirror.
Be strong.
Be strong.
Fail.
Rodger just got pwned.

I ran to my locker.
I quickly took out my guitar.

I ran back to the auditorium.

I noticed no one was singing.

I climbed up stage.

"This is a song for my best friend, Gabrielle."

I played the notes on my guitar.

I sang "Mine" By Taylor Swift.

But...
She wasn't the only special one.
He knew all my secrets.
I knew all of his.
He tried to flat iron his hair.
His mom taught him how to knit, but he doesn't.
He wears a lot of Navy blue, like me.
The time when he was 4 and his mom made his mom made him set up the table and he put one of those huge salad spoons.
The time his socks turned pink in the washer.

I stopped singing.

I shook my head.

I put my guitar on the floor and walked to Collin.

The song began.

"When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist
But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception"

I could see Rodger's smile from the stage.

"Fabulous! Bella! You are all dismissed! We will continue Monday!"

I ran down the stage.

"Are you sure?" Rodger asked.

"I'm pretty darn sure."

~BELLS